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Candice Nolan / Mar 7, 2019

Birth Story

Today, as we mark baby’s tenth month outside the womb, it seems apt to share our birth story. One thing I have to be grateful for, is the fact that I was able to deliver my baby naturally. To make that possible, I started consulting a midwife about midway through my pregnancy. The gynae had […]

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It’s a cinch

I am doing it, fam! Baby ate breakfast, had her morning ablutions, playtime and now she’s tucked snugly away in the wrap for naptime. And I managed time to express milk for next week! Super proud of myself. I did have a hand from our domestic worker, Liz. But it wasn’t half as bad as […]

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Enough?

Panic stations, everyone!!!! The nanny needs a personal day tomorrow, so I will be all alone with the baby all day. By myself. All she will have is me. I have had to do my breathing exercises, just to calm down. It helps for abit. But then I remember, and I end up breaking out […]

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Anxiety

I still battle with anxiety, although, thanks to the sleeping tablets, it no longer keeps me up at night. I need to learn how to deal with these anxious thoughts. Typically, I either rehash the day before and/or rehearse tomorrow.  I always imagine a catastrophic consequence over a task left undone. Or I rehearse the […]

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Life

Life on life’s terms. That’s what I aspire to everyday. Living life on life’s terms. It makes things less cluttered and I feel less frazzled, taking things as they come.  My baby is not well. She is feverish, is refusing food and is finicky. When I pulled in at the doctor’s office, there was a […]

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I’m fine.

My church minister, the Right Honourable Reverend Heidi, asked why I chose to blog about my battle with depression. Mainly, because there is a dearth of honest accounts by sufferers. Post natal depression is a common affliction, affecting more than one in every 10 women within a year of giving birth.  And yet, every single […]

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Saboteur

My time at the mental healthcare facility was enlightening. I was equipped with tools to both understand myself better and help myself to heal. Today, in therapy, I realised a tendency to self-sabotage. By always fixating on the worse case scenario, I often have anxiety about future catastrophies. Like, falling with the baby or baby […]

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Hometime

I was discharged today. Found out when I tried to get a transfer to another room (to escape from snoeffels, the crazy cat lady). I am still reeling! Last night, snoeffels kept up her incessant chatter. I woke to find her standing over my bed, like an apparition from hades. Nearly jumped out of my […]

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