Lockdown Log: The Sky is Falling

Candice Nolan / May 8, 2020

Lockdown Log: The Sky is Falling

The centre is no longer holding. The sky is falling! My hormones are wreaking havoc with every system of my body. I’ve been suppressing them for years. The bi-polar meds were potent stuff. Stopped taking them about two weeks ago and now I really have to deal with life on life’s terms. And it sucks!

Hubby went back to work this week. So we’ve had to settle into a new way of being. This means that I’m having to deal with my toddler on a more full time basis. I am irritable and moody. Add guilt to the mix and you have a recipe for disaster!

That’s why I haven’t been writing much lately. I hate that it’s affecting my work. The other day I lost my cool with a colleague. It’s a rather toxic space, I’m afraid. Alot of passive aggressiveness and spite. Really unnecessary! Usually I try not to let it get me down. But with my hormones running rampant…Well!

And it seems I’m not the only one! In Cape Town some do-gooder really pissed people off. So they torched his car! But alas the dichotomy! I guess nothing is really clear cut or straightforward. It remains within our power to react to events, avoid taking them personally, and turning it into a win!

The sky is falling

This week my mom was retrenched. She is 66 years old. Nursing has been her life’s calling and she would often joke about working until 70! Her response has been measured. She isn’t falling apart. She has taken the opportunity to reassess her retirement and work out ways to spend more time with her granddaughter!

On that score, it’s a gift. Because while my hormones are proving the roller coaster for my emotions, Mom is able to lend a helping hand with #BabySesame. And it’s all thanks to the lockdown. It forced us to spend time with our selves, take stock and really assess where we are and where we could be headed! The sky may be falling, but my umbrella is able!

As for my writing, this too shall pass. So, I thought I might take this opportunity to highlight a podcast I put together in tribute to my mom. It’s actually a two part series, that kickstarted this whole podcasting endeavour. This was the first time that I ever did a podcast about something personal. And it birthed a hunger for more such storytelling!

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Been a grandie.

GrandiesAs a grandparent, you are allowed a second chance to enjoy your grandchild . You can have fun with out stress and responsibility. 😁😁❤

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