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Reaping the rewards

Sep 2, 2017
Candice Nolan

I am starting to reap the rewards of motherhood. It feels good to be able to comfort her with some breastmilk when she’s feeling overwhelmed. And how sweet when she gently lays her head on my chest when she’s ready to sleep. She really is a pleasant little girl. Only cries when she’s frustrated or […]

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Birth Story

Sep 1, 2017
Candice Nolan

Today, as we mark baby’s tenth month outside the womb, it seems apt to share our birth story. One thing I have to be grateful for, is the fact that I was able to deliver my baby naturally. To make that possible, I started consulting a midwife about midway through my pregnancy. The gynae had […]

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It’s a cinch

Candice Nolan

I am doing it, fam! Baby ate breakfast, had her morning ablutions, playtime and now she’s tucked snugly away in the wrap for naptime. And I managed time to express milk for next week! Super proud of myself. I did have a hand from our domestic worker, Liz. But it wasn’t half as bad as […]

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Enough?

Aug 31, 2017
Candice Nolan

Panic stations, everyone!!!! The nanny needs a personal day tomorrow, so I will be all alone with the baby all day. By myself. All she will have is me. I have had to do my breathing exercises, just to calm down. It helps for abit. But then I remember, and I end up breaking out […]

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Anxiety

Candice Nolan

I still battle with anxiety, although, thanks to the sleeping tablets, it no longer keeps me up at night. I need to learn how to deal with these anxious thoughts. Typically, I either rehash the day before and/or rehearse tomorrow.  I always imagine a catastrophic consequence over a task left undone. Or I rehearse the […]

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Life

Aug 30, 2017
Candice Nolan

Life on life’s terms. That’s what I aspire to everyday. Living life on life’s terms. It makes things less cluttered and I feel less frazzled, taking things as they come.  My baby is not well. She is feverish, is refusing food and is finicky. When I pulled in at the doctor’s office, there was a […]

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I’m fine.

Aug 29, 2017
Candice Nolan

My church minister, the Right Honourable Reverend Heidi, asked why I chose to blog about my battle with depression. Mainly, because there is a dearth of honest accounts by sufferers. Post natal depression is a common affliction, affecting more than one in every 10 women within a year of giving birth.  And yet, every single […]

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Saboteur

Aug 28, 2017
Candice Nolan

My time at the mental healthcare facility was enlightening. I was equipped with tools to both understand myself better and help myself to heal. Today, in therapy, I realised a tendency to self-sabotage. By always fixating on the worse case scenario, I often have anxiety about future catastrophies. Like, falling with the baby or baby […]

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